"i'm broken to the world and empty to myself"

monkey in the air, monkey in the tree.
what is that falling on my head?
well, it's monkey pee!

sleep with nothing but love
love nothing but sleep
die to love another
but do not love to die.

wow, don't ask we what i am doing. i'm just kind of blah at the moment and tired with mixed feelings about some of life's situations that have been thrown at me. in other news...love. hahaha. woooooo. yes i went there. my life, my thoughts, my body and soul. oh yeah. i'll leave that topic for a moment and speak of my dream last night, and what a dream it was. i was located in Alan's house in the what use to be the band room with two, yes two ladies. one thing led to another and well, the 3 of us were having a good ol' time. i woke up a little happy and then feel back asleep. i have heard that you are not supposed to remember good dreams only bad ones but if this was not good then what was it? i feel a tad sickened by my dream however b/c it dealt with sex and other sexual related things. i am not one against sex just premarital sex and that is what a part of it involved. now in my dream i made the decision to have sex but in real life i have denied it several times. what is trying to be said through my dream? i have no clue. if anyone believe's it to be something let me know please. thank you. i have much to talk about but not enough time to type. i shall continue some what of my talk in my next entry or perhaps later on down this road we call life. as for now, i love you all. goodbye.