hey everyone...i know it's been awhile since i last posted. i've just been doing some thinking lately and i haven't really wanted to write for that matter. my comment thing is not working as you may be able to tell but if you would like to make one send me an e-mail at germ68@hotmail.com, thanks. lets see....my life has been somewhat up to par lately. things have been decent but i wish there was more in my life. this weekend was kool. Friday i went to the mall and such and Steak & Shake but with who...Sheik...yeah i know. i was on my way to Rocky's Replay when i realized i left my phone at S&S so i went back and luckily it was still there. that was more less my night. oh yeah i bought the new Busta Rhymes album and it blows so i suggest not picking it up. Saturday i had my party, it was nice. towards the end of the night i was rather depressed for the fact that not everyone showed up who said they were coming and the big thing that got me down was love. i realized that my TRUE friends came and i am thankful for that but i didn't have that person to make my birthday even more special. i know it was already incredible enough and i also know that i should not complain about this but it's my blog and this is what i feel like doing. i just thought to myself for sometime on how happy all these people are and well, i miss that special feeling. i would rather have one true love all of my life then date hundreads of girls...note* i was being sarcastic with the hundreds comment...but, honestly i would. i know that the love of my life is out there and waiting for me but waiting is something i don't want to do anymore.