wow...hey everyone..long time no post. i can't believe it, i'm actually writing something. it's 11:42 p.m. on february 8th of the year 2003 and i'm doing nothing. it sucks but sometimes you just need it to think or perhaps write and well that's what i'm doing. i'm listening to the spice girls song "goodbye"...awww...brings back so many memories. i'm going to cry. sniff*. tissue please. to go back to the old days would be too good but the future looks even better. my life has pretty much been the same. i'm still in search for THE JOB but i'm having no such luck as of now. v-day is almost here and i'm looking forward to spending it with mandy. almost 9 months together with this wonderful girl...wow...hehe. i miss hanging out with my cousin alan..this i am sure and it blows. i miss my friends and the group...even though they are so close they seem so far. in about 4 months i'll be graduating from high school. i've waited so long for this and wanted this so bad but now i'm not sure if i'm ready. i'm scared. it's weird how some things you hate at times you'll grow to miss and soon treasure them. i guess we just have to make the most of our time here while we can. i'm in a rather stange mood tonight. it's as if everything in my life is flashing before me and i'm noticing everything that i've taken for granted and how i've look past all the wonderful and beautiful things in life and how i need to get out there, walk around and admire this worlds beauties. it truly is an amazing thing. life. who would have thought.