greetings. i'm back to my normal self...i think. tonight (Saturday) was a weird night. i'll start with my day though. to begin i woke up to a phone call at 4 in the morning and who was it? it was Nicole. this kind of upset me but not to much b/c i was incredibly tired...after this occurrence i fell back to sleep. when i woke, i was dizzy as anything. i went to the bathroom and was wobbling all over the place. i went back to bed and still my room was spinning. when i woke up yet again at 10:20 my head was still bothering me. i ate some breakfast and watched some t.v. but the pain and frustration did not go away. i went back to bed around 11 and slept till 1:30. this time when i got out of bed i felt fine. i did nothing for the next few hours. just being bored sucked. i finally got ahold of someone (Sheik) and we were going to go out and do whatever. i picked him up and we went over to the mall (surprise, surprise). i had to stop by and pick up a card for my friend's (Katie) birthday party. when leaving Brian called me and wanted to hang so i picked him up. we arrived at his house and his parents were outside and wanted to hear my system and i was like sure kool. they thought it was nice as do i and that was more less that. me being the nice person i am drove his sister and her friend back to her house then stopped by Julia's for Brian. after this we went over to Rocky's Replay where we indulged in the fun of some good ol' arcade games. we spent our money and wanted to leave. then while driving down the road with thoughts in my head it occurred to me that well, this night is not that bad so far. we went over to the Altamonte mall where we ate. i had some honey chicken which tasted like poo and the rice well, i bit into something hard as i was consuming it. this is where the night started to get bad. terrible food can bring a man down in his time of hunger. when the shit-for-food was done being eaten we left and went to Katie's party which was located at Chuck E. Cheese's or however you spell it. i gave Katie a dollar 4 pennies and a stick of gum. why you may ask? b/c i am cheep and a loss for money for the time being. we hung out there for about 10 to 15 minutes then left. i then took Brian home b/c he was going on a date with Julia later that night. after this was done Sheik and i went to Target where we tossed a football around and talked for some time. then we went to Steak & Shake where these 2 stupid guys would not stop looking at us. we were about to throw down but thought we better not b/c we didn't want to kill them b/c we both were kind of bored and heck we really would've had nothing better to do then beat the shit out of 2 stupid kids. anywho Sheik ate again and i sat there. As we were leaving i heard someone call my name and who was it? it was Ashley a girl from school, just a friend. we talked for like a minute or 2 then we left. i took him home and then thought a lot while driving. i realized how much being alone is getting to me. i see all these happy couples and people dating and the smiles on their faces and the looks in their eyes and i want that. i want to be the one with a beautiful girl in my arms and know that she'll never let me go. with those amazing eyes and beautiful smile. i want to be that kid so madly in love there is nothing he can think about but the girl of his dreams. maybe i am asking for too much. i more then likely am but i can dream can't i?