hey everyone...i know it's been awhile since i last posted. i've just been doing some thinking lately and i haven't really wanted to write for that matter. my comment thing is not working as you may be able to tell but if you would like to make one send me an e-mail at germ68@hotmail.com, thanks. lets see....my life has been somewhat up to par lately. things have been decent but i wish there was more in my life. this weekend was kool. Friday i went to the mall and such and Steak & Shake but with who...Sheik...yeah i know. i was on my way to Rocky's Replay when i realized i left my phone at S&S so i went back and luckily it was still there. that was more less my night. oh yeah i bought the new Busta Rhymes album and it blows so i suggest not picking it up. Saturday i had my party, it was nice. towards the end of the night i was rather depressed for the fact that not everyone showed up who said they were coming and the big thing that got me down was love. i realized that my TRUE friends came and i am thankful for that but i didn't have that person to make my birthday even more special. i know it was already incredible enough and i also know that i should not complain about this but it's my blog and this is what i feel like doing. i just thought to myself for sometime on how happy all these people are and well, i miss that special feeling. i would rather have one true love all of my life then date hundreads of girls...note* i was being sarcastic with the hundreds comment...but, honestly i would. i know that the love of my life is out there and waiting for me but waiting is something i don't want to do anymore.

Miami Dolphins, Miami Dolphins, Miami Dolphins number 1! yeah buddy. that's right Miami won their Monday night game against the Colts 41 to 6...it was definitely the Dolphins best game. we tore those damn Colts up. WERD! what a game i must say, my mom and i stayed up to watch the whole thing. being as tired as i was today i missed my first 3 periods and slept in. i had a rather good rest and now i feel fine. well, 7 more days till Christmas Break. YES!!! about time. IT NEEDS TO BE COLDER! that's that. i'm tired of this hot, humid, sticky ass weather. ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww! geeze. so how is everyone doing? me i am ok today, yes i am lost in love but that is my life. i got a haircut today yes i did. i look SEXY! don't i always? ahhhh NO! lol. j/k. yes...guess who i am on the phone with now? Nicole. she called me people, just get it straight. well, i believe i'm going to bed. i'll talk to you all later and speak of my day more another time.

bonjour. i know it has been a few days since my last post and for those of you that read my entries i am sorry. i've been busy b/c i mean it was the weekend and well, i'm sure you all know how it is. at the moment my stomach is bothering me. i consumed 6 shrimp, a nutri-grain bar, a box of raisins and a cookie not but 20 minutes ago. let me tell you this, it has not settled well, and you all wonder how i get this great body. psh! sorry! my weekend. hmmm. Friday night i did the usual to a point. i picked up Sheik about 7 and we went to Steak & Shake. we had our food and talked. after eating we then went up to Rocky's Replay where we met up with Mark, Brian, David, Matt, Josh, Brittany, some other girl and Chris. we played a few games then with my brilliant idea ventured over to Target to play tag...yes TAG! we played for sometime then got kicked out. some under cover cop or something was on to us and told us to leave and walked mark and i out of the store while the rest of our friends got away. he told us not to come back that night and if we continued to play tag we would in return be kicked out every time. haha stupid man. with this done we went back to Steak & Shake where everyone indulged in some shakes..hahe...however i did not have one. we then left and went back to Brian's house to hang out for sometime. overall the night went good. Saturday i cut the lawn and vacuumed out my car and well, that was my morning. i showered up and waited for night to come. when it came i had nothing to do. i called Brian and he told me that him and some friends were having a little get together. i then went out to the mall where i picked up dinner then went to Chris's where this get together was being held. Chris's parents were out somewhere so yeah...Brian, David, Chris, Brittany, Julia and i had some beverages. some had more than others like everyone had more then me b/c i had to drive home. no i did not drink a lot. i know i should not have gotten in the car but i needed to get home and plus i felt perfectly fine. although that is not an excuse, i still did so we sat around, talked, listened to music and played video games. it was an alright night. the ladies wanted me to sing for them so i did. i sang one my favorite songs. i preformed Eyesore by A New Found Glory and everyone said i did a really good job. i was actually happy with the way i sounded. it was kool. after i left i stayed up on the computer talking to a friend on my web cam and that was that. i went to bed at 2 i believe then woke up on Sunday. today ahhh, i helped my dad put up Christmas lights and such. we went to home depot with my brother...yes he was finally home...and we picked up some wood for out train set and some plants for the front yard. we then came home and finished our job. then tonight i went to church with Brian, his sister and his mom. it was an interesting mass, although Brian would not stop talking i still enjoyed it. after church Brian and i went out to dinner. care to guess where we went? STEAK & FREAKIN' SHAKE. while there i ate a jalopeno (sp?) pepper for a dollar. you know the one's in the jar sitting on the table? let me tell you, damn that was stupid. my mouth was burning for like 30-45 minutes. wooohoooie. i'd do it again though but for more money. that was my weekend. yea. school is tomorrow and that blows b/c it does. i am done for the night, i still have to finish working out. my abs need some help but when that is done i shall be off to bed. it was nice talking to you all. have a great day/night. au revoir.

hey everyone. mad props to Mr. Alan Brotz for hooking me up with my new comment thingy down there. he is the man. how was everyone's day? mine was alright. nothing great but nothing to bad. let me see here. my friend Brian...i think you all know him. well, he called me up and made accusations about me liking his sister which i do not. i will admit i did at one point but, that was b/c i was just looking for anything and i was silly. to continue this i was pissed off that he was assuming that i liked her when i stated several times that i DID NOT. we argued some about this situation and come to find out his sister (Jamie) came to say that i said i liked her and told her this, which is a false statement. the words "Jamie i like you" never came out of my mouth nor did i imply that i liked her to my knowledge. perhaps i threw out some mixed signals which might have occurred but that's all they were, mixed signals. i wrote a poem today in physics. i thought at first it was really good then i came to the conclusion that it's not that great. i'll shall end my post with the poem but not right at this moment. i have one more thing to say. damn i just forgot b/c i answered am IM. sorry. it was important to i believe. i hope everyone has a great night.

soothing, smell of her own,
gentle, feel of her touch.
soft, feel of her lips,
warmth from her eyes.
life at it's best,
then at it's worst.
down as i go,
as well all shall do in time.
pull myself up,
turn back the page.
to late.
i have fallen,
the page has been torn.
perhaps i should not climb,
it was good that i let go.
life moves forward,
and back is a way i will not turn.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i have no clue what's going on with my comment button thingy but yeah. school was ok today it was nothing to bad but, it was school. i'm kind of tired but i don't want to go to sleep yet. some girl pinched me yesterday and it hurt like a motha. man was i pissed. i yelled at her but that was it. i wish i had more to say and i do but the thing i don't have is the time so i'll write more tomorrow. i promise.

i really don't have much to say about today...it was a day. nothing happened, well, nothing worth talking about. yeah. goodnight everyone i shall talk to you all tomorrow.

how many monkeys can you fit in a barrel?
20 more days until my birthday. yeah. blah. school was gay today as it always seems to be. nothing exciting happened that i can think of besides being bitten twice by a girl but that's about it. i went to the gym twice today and i am kind of sore right now, man oh man could i use a massage. hoooooey. Christmas is coming up and yet i'm not ready for it. all of the things that make Christmas are not here. i'm still in need of a tree, the music, the lights, the shopping, the cold weather and the love. foooooey man. pish, pash! where are you at my friends? i hope you get here soon so i can get more into the mood. is it me or does Christmas seem less exciting these days b/c it's advertised so much earlier than it should be? the only thing that i want to do is party and ummm yeah. that's more less it. where are all you ladies at? come on up and give me some lovin'. is the grass greener on the other side or does it not even grow? i am in need of a job. does anyone have any ideas that are not food related? i am going to go apply at blockbuster either tomorrow or Wednesday in hopes of something good happening from it. i am a loss for words so i am going to go. i'll write more once i can think of something to say.

"i know it's hard for you, to understand what i'm going through." NFG

PLEASE TELL ME WHO YOU ARE! I HAVE NO CLUE! SERIOUSLY! PLEASE!

"as for me i wish that i was anywhere, with anyone, making out" D.C.
what a day today was. i sat around and did nothing. as of now i have just finished my homework and am tired but thought i should write in my blog b/c sleep can wait but the wants of others can not. how many times can you go to sleep with thoughts in your head and dream a thousand dreams but none come true? how can love walk by you every day and you never even know it's there? how can the beauty of this world be destroyed and yet no one cares to think twice about what they are doing to the world and themselves? i ask myself these questions and come up with no answers. ridiculous decisions are being made all the time and who is there to guide us and help us with them? we should be there. we need to help each other and in times of need care for the ones that need to be cared for. YEAH! this just end ummm yeah...my birthday party has been pushed back to the following Saturday the 15th. please everyone come and ladies i need you here. i mean that shall be my present but just please show up! thanks. my parents bought me a monkey today. no it's not real although if it were that would be an astonishing gift. today has not been a day of love for me. i have not really thought about it this whole time. it's weird though b/c i mean i had so much time on my hands but yet did not think of such things. perhaps i am getting over this feeling...NAH! it was an off day. well, i must be going now i have some more things to do before i head off to bed. thanks for reading. oh yeah i met this kool girl today. nothing big but yeah who knows...right?

MIAMI is victorious! that's right people they won. we were losing the whole game but came back in the 4th in what was 4 to 5 minutes and scored 3 i repeat 3 touchdowns. the Dolphins beat the Broncos with a score of 21 to 10. YEAH BUDDY! in other news the Jets lost to the Patriots with a score of 17 to 16. now Miami is first in their division. woooohooooie. well, that's it for now. i have work to do so i'll talk to all of you later. have a great day kids. bye.....

"i try to fuk the bitches but the bitches won't fuk me." RBF
"stupid girls for stupid people. hmmm. i'll have none of that."

DOLPHINS vs. BRONCOS
1:00 @ MIAMI
HELLS YEAH!
are you ready for yet another win by the Dolphins i am. it's time to kick the ass of Denver. damn i'm hungry. i need food. anywho, this game will rock and all should watch. by the way who is this girl that is posting on my site with the unknown name. tell me please for i would like to know. thanks. MIAMI ALL THE WAY! YEAH BABY YEAH!

greetings. i'm back to my normal self...i think. tonight (Saturday) was a weird night. i'll start with my day though. to begin i woke up to a phone call at 4 in the morning and who was it? it was Nicole. this kind of upset me but not to much b/c i was incredibly tired...after this occurrence i fell back to sleep. when i woke, i was dizzy as anything. i went to the bathroom and was wobbling all over the place. i went back to bed and still my room was spinning. when i woke up yet again at 10:20 my head was still bothering me. i ate some breakfast and watched some t.v. but the pain and frustration did not go away. i went back to bed around 11 and slept till 1:30. this time when i got out of bed i felt fine. i did nothing for the next few hours. just being bored sucked. i finally got ahold of someone (Sheik) and we were going to go out and do whatever. i picked him up and we went over to the mall (surprise, surprise). i had to stop by and pick up a card for my friend's (Katie) birthday party. when leaving Brian called me and wanted to hang so i picked him up. we arrived at his house and his parents were outside and wanted to hear my system and i was like sure kool. they thought it was nice as do i and that was more less that. me being the nice person i am drove his sister and her friend back to her house then stopped by Julia's for Brian. after this we went over to Rocky's Replay where we indulged in the fun of some good ol' arcade games. we spent our money and wanted to leave. then while driving down the road with thoughts in my head it occurred to me that well, this night is not that bad so far. we went over to the Altamonte mall where we ate. i had some honey chicken which tasted like poo and the rice well, i bit into something hard as i was consuming it. this is where the night started to get bad. terrible food can bring a man down in his time of hunger. when the shit-for-food was done being eaten we left and went to Katie's party which was located at Chuck E. Cheese's or however you spell it. i gave Katie a dollar 4 pennies and a stick of gum. why you may ask? b/c i am cheep and a loss for money for the time being. we hung out there for about 10 to 15 minutes then left. i then took Brian home b/c he was going on a date with Julia later that night. after this was done Sheik and i went to Target where we tossed a football around and talked for some time. then we went to Steak & Shake where these 2 stupid guys would not stop looking at us. we were about to throw down but thought we better not b/c we didn't want to kill them b/c we both were kind of bored and heck we really would've had nothing better to do then beat the shit out of 2 stupid kids. anywho Sheik ate again and i sat there. As we were leaving i heard someone call my name and who was it? it was Ashley a girl from school, just a friend. we talked for like a minute or 2 then we left. i took him home and then thought a lot while driving. i realized how much being alone is getting to me. i see all these happy couples and people dating and the smiles on their faces and the looks in their eyes and i want that. i want to be the one with a beautiful girl in my arms and know that she'll never let me go. with those amazing eyes and beautiful smile. i want to be that kid so madly in love there is nothing he can think about but the girl of his dreams. maybe i am asking for too much. i more then likely am but i can dream can't i?